Sushi Love

I have ten minutes to write a blog before B and I go out for sushi.
I have promised myself that I would write a blog every week for at least a year now, but I just never get around to it.
So I figure if I promise I will write a ten minute blog every week, then I HAVE TO do it, and even better, maybe I will pick april to be a month of ten minute blogs every day.
Then I will be forced to think, and be interesting...maybe I pick March instead.
March 4th until April 8th, because april 8th is Easter, and that seems like a good punctuation point.
Nothing religious.
Not really.
Change is everywhere right now.
I have moved out of the back of house bread baking and into the front of house people squishing.
No longer do I mold flour and yeast and water into magnificence, but I mold flesh and heart and soul.
Okay, that's a wee bit melodramatic.
It does make me feel better though.
In the two weeks since the change, I have:
- realized I really have my work cut out for me.
-begun waking up before eight a.m. every day (some days I am awake at four thirty in the morning, and this makes me feel insane).
-worked harder than I worked in the back for the last four months.
-noticed a lot of people being lazy.
-began working with the public again and all that it entails...

I do like people.

I missed the micro-interactions you have helping a person every three minutes. The things you can learn with three lines of conversation. The readings you get off of people in the simple exchange of money for bread.
It's different from any other coffee shop...but I'm not sure how yet.

Somehow, I think it will allow me to write more.
Perhaps I've been a vampire all along, and what was screwing me up these last three years was that I couldn't feed off the masses like I had been for so long.
All I know is that I feel very human. I feel raw and inadequate and poised to conquer, and I've been doing a lot of laughing and crying and thinking, and more than anything else, reminding myself to live in the moment. To really and truly live in this, right. now.

And right now I am going to cram sushi in my mouth with my husband, a magical feat, because we haven't been able to afford to go out for sushi in three years.

Yay the rewards of being a grown up, sort of!

For ten minutes.